So, in addition to the Myer-Briggs, I have been on this road confirming my career goals and I think I just confirmed how confused and complicated I am. So, the first test I was recommended to take was the work values inventory from Donald Super. It has you circle a number between 5 to 1, with 5 being "very important" and 1 being "unimportant" for each "work value." First off, I hate putting things on scales like this. Unless they are numbers, I don't see how people can rank things. Second, you know what you want in work but is it really necessary to rank them?

Regardless, I tried my best to rank each item and then tally them up for each category. The categories included Creativity, Management, Achievement, Surroundings, Supervisory Relationships, Way of Life, Security, Associates, Aesthetic, Prestige, Independence, Variety, Economic Return, Altruism, Intellectual Stimulation. My highest was for Altruism... while I managed to get a seven-way tie between Achievement, Surroundings, Supervisory Relationships, Way of Life, Security, Associates, and Intellectual Stimulation. Um, what the heck? I guess I only strongly feel anything towards helping others, and otherwise don't feel the need to highly rank anything else? My three lowest categories were Aesthetic, Variety and Management, and Creativity and Independence. Prestige and Economic Return were in between. How overwhelming!

I then tried taking the the Self-Directed Search (form R, 4th edition) to find out my "Holland Code." It looks at Activities, Competencies, Occupations, and Self-Estimates among the five categories for occupations, Realistic, Investigative, Artistic, Social, Enterprising, and Conventional. In activities, my top two scores were in Investigative and Social. In competencies, my top two were Investigative and Conventional. Occupations showed high numbers in Investigative and Conventional. Self-Estimates, however, showed high numbers in Conventional and Social. Somehow, in the end, I ended up with being the Investigative type, with a tie for Social and Conventional.

( P.S. and edit for more opportunity listings! )

Yeah, I'm not taking this seriously anymore. All I know is that I need to do something that helps or could eventually help people and that I do some investigative/repetitive work in. Career center appointment is on Monday.

It's funny how I hate taking tests that make me choose between two items, especially if this is supposed to determine the type of person I am. Is it illogical or logical to try to consider the situation for each response, rather than what would "usually" apply? For example, the questions that confuse me seem to be oriented on emotion versus logic or structure versus freedom. Why can't there be both, one more at different times? There seemed to be some sort of stress caused by just choosing one or the other! In fact, just seeing only two choices for everything made me want to scroll through trying to find a question that had more options. Sadly that did not exist.

( some of the questions presented )

I think I'm just going to pick a lot of random responses and go with logic-related responses because in my opinion, you need to look at both what seems objective and how it affects people... and then choose the decision that has the most positives and least negatives. Obviously it seems impossible to integrate the two...

Okay, what gives us the right to look at people and try to figure out if they are gay or not. Actually, why have I done this? I can understand the whole idea of me wanting the guy to even possibly want me, so hoping he is not gay, but if I truly believed in the sexuality as a spectrum idea, I would not think this! I do believe in that but my actions have begged to differ through the years. I've gotten better but it's messed up that I still thought, oh, a guy wanting to dress in "feminine" clothing often would mean that he is definitely gay... except it's okay for a girl to constantly dress up as a guy? What is this hypocrisy?!
I also hate how others do this to a bigger extreme, especially with guys. With girls it seems to be more like she just seems like a lesbian but with guys, it usually comes down to clothing, way of speaking, or for some even way of talking. Anything that just seems both off and "gay." The whole concept of "gaydar" baffles my mind, for I do not have such a thing, and I do not even know how much it truly matters in everyday life to know if one is gay or not. It almost seems as wrong as someone walking around going "hmm, I wonder how much she weighs" or "hmm, I wonder if he's a virgin." Honestly, it's none of our business! So, why is sexuality regarded as such an open thing?

Also, why is it that when I state how annoyed I am at how something is sexist or sexualized, there is always the argument "well, it's not us... I don't know what you're talking about buuttt most people III know." Jesus H. Christ, I am not talking about you! We wouldn't be friends if you were that demented... hence why I prefer being alone. I would not deal with your stupidity if that was the case and I refuse to deal with your micro-focused arguments right now. It's getting ridiculous that whenever I look at something at a sociological viewpoint, or just generally speaking, there has to be that SPECIFIC response. Fuck that. You may not represent the norm BUT IT STILL EXISTS. Ugh.

For years it seems like my use of thank you and sorry has been excessive. Someimes people would understand my true feelings behind such overused words and other times some would only account the times used, rather than how I truly felt.

( Elaboration )

-This seems to be an anonymous letter to someone, or a couple of people, and basically just my own frustration in how I view things versus how they come off.-

I always hated how dichotomy of belief and being makes life seem a lot more simple if you can just place yourself on one side. You are either religious or not, pro-life or pro-choice, agnostic or atheist, alive or dead, etc, and that is how you can base most of your views/opinions. What about the views and processes involved in between? Has the advances of information and technology sort of brought upon a greater desire to control, because it may make you question or support those given "facts" you thought you knew all along?

( Elaboration )

Remember Stanford's prison experiment? This was very much like that, except not about prison inmates. Instead, this was to show the differences in classes/groups/statuses and how everyone was treated differently. Everyone sort of new what it was called and that it would help teach multicultural views and such but no one had anticipated as to how intense the experiment would be.

Everyone was split into the buildings they were from, with three or so buildings in one experiment. After that, as you entered, you were given a colored smiley face. I was given a green smiley face and proceeded to the corner of the room where there was a sign for the green group. I recognized some of the faces that entered the group with me, which was refreshing, but as time went on, you could easily lose recognition of those same faces.

( the rest from green's point of view )

More information on this exercise: http://islam-zwart.net/workstuff/Training/Diversity%20Training%20Material/ArchieBunkersNeighborhood.pdf

So apparently my research done on Indian women in technology is definitely true, at least when it comes to my family. It seems the main purpose of having women succeed in India is not to find a good, successful job, but to say you will be successful by taking part in a "major with a scope." My dad had an engineering degree (yet he's in banking) and my Aunt has some Law degree (and yet she is just a teacher here and had to further her education to do that). There are other members of my paternal family that apparently do not have matching education and careers but basically they are all obsessed with the IDEA of education, rather than the APPLICATION.

( rant about sexism/education continues here )

For years I have not understood much concerning this topic. I could understand some of the choices being made and some of the reasons being stated but rarely could I get the overall purpose. There is cleaning alcohol, which makes sense to use to clean. Then there is alcohol that is consumed by most college students, for various reasons. Some of those reasons vary from "I like to drink alone when I am sad," to "I like to drink beer to get drunk," to the usual "it relaxes me."

( Trying to find out the reason behind the drinking phenomena )

I don't know. I've been meaning to rant about this for a while. I seriously just want to understand the social norm that is so highly associated with college students.

Write a story that ends with the following sentence: Debra brushed the sand from her blouse, took a last, wistful look at the now putrefying horse, and stepped into the hot-air balloon.

Write a story that begins with a man throwing handfuls of $100 bulls from a speeding car, and ends with a young girl urinating into a tin bucket.

Your main character finds a box of scorched human hair. Whose is it? How did it get there? Write this as a short play.

Write a story that is an exchange between two individuals taking place on the "Missed Connections" section of craigslist.org. Alternately, two people meet each other on Craigslist, only to have one of them discover a terrible secret. Write a scene in which they run into each other at Qdoba the next day.

Write a story in which a forest fire is a good thing.

The Letter E is the most commonly used letter in the alphabet. The letters N, S, T, and R are the four most commonly used consonants. Write a story that either doesn't use E, doesn't use N, S, T, R, or doesn't use S, T, E, R, N.
( I have anger issues. )

Chorea sancti viti is Latin for "St. Vitus' Dance." It is really a debilitating muscle disorder. Write the summary of a musical about this horrible ailment.

Jot down a work that does not have any word with more than four... letters.
( I also like inflicting issues. )

Write a college entry essay revolving around a very memorable sandwich. What kind of sandwich was it? Where did you get it?
( I'm not sure where this was going. )

Tom Stoppard's famous play Rosencrantz and Guildenstern are Dead, revolves around two minor characters from Hamlet. Do something like that. You can't use Hamlet. And you can't use Rosencrantz and Guildenstern are Dead, or you'll break postmodernism.

Have you ever heard of a snowclone? Examples of snowclones are "X is the new Y," ("pink is the new black,") or "What Would X Do?" (What Would Batman Do?") where X and Y can be replaced by a variety of things to create an instantly recognizable trope by lazy writers and journalists. Pretend you're writing an ironic piece for the New Yorker in which you give suggestions for new snowclones. Make sure this isn't boring.

The year is 2031. Nick Nornby is 74. He is writing his 36th book. What is it?

Render a great work of literature into a limerick.

Write a story from the first person POV without using the word "I." Has to be grammatically correct.

Write a scene that takes place on a paddle boat in a state park. It may be any state park. The paddle boat may be shaped like any animal, but it must be shaped like an animal.

Write an epistolary (story composed of letters) between two or more characters. Teh first letter must be posted in 1993. All other letters must be posted after 1999. You may not include any details that could come up during a high school reunion (marriage, jobs, college, etc). If your story has four or more characters, one of the characters must have received the letter in error, and responded to it anyway.

Write a series of short journal entries as written by a literary/artistic figure. One of the entries must include the phrase (in caps) IT JUST MAKES ME SO MAD ARRRGGGHH, and another must describe a classified/personal/etc ad they wrote or responded to, and the results.

"Hoarding" is a form of OCD the acquisition of, and failure to use or discard, such a large number of seemingly useless possessions that it causes significant clutter and impairment to basic living activities such as mobility, cooking, cleaning, showering, and sleeping. Use this in a story.

Write a story that includes the following: a wedding, a divorce, a lovely trip on a boat, pasta salad, an Intro to Drawing class, incest, a harangue, a car chase, a deck of cards, Antonio Bandaras (may be substituted for other Latin American celebrity), a hand-rolled cigarette, a mention of the state of Kentucky (no characters may be from or have ever visited this state, nor may they know anyone who ever has), a tumbleweave, Lupus, an untouched bowl of candy corn (story cannot take place in the month of October), bedbugs, and junk mail. Your story must fit into the following box:
( It fit into the box. )

Credit, for the most part, goes to S. Clark.. or so I've been told?

For sale: Baby shoes, never worn.
-Ernest Hemingway from 1920s?

I have no idea what my story would be but the only thing I can come up with is:
Another day, in spite of feelings.

It almost seems true for my life... it also seems like a pathetic six-liner.

Credit for the idea: plotting_pen

Edit 10-01-08: I did not mean for it to sound as if I do not want another day. It was more of a "I'll do something another day, despite feelings of wanting to do it sooner" or something like that. I don't know what I was thinking. It was a horrible six-liner. I was not meant to speak/write, haha.

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So like this would be like the middle-adopters? :-p Poor people who cannot get an ad-free livejournal and learn to socialize here... although they do have facebook to go crazy on. Part of me wishes i never deleted my old journal. Oh well.

That reminds me, I really see no point in the iPhone commercial about Facebook. Why would that be a motivation to buy it!?

Can I say cute?

The kids were around 8 years old and had written letters to Jay Leno about eating healthy after seeing his article on Parade magazine. This got him interested and had the kids contacted through a satellite. I loved how the kids were so happy throughout the whole interview and then when Jay Leno had his first vegetable things, the first thing they told him to eat was a broccoli. He actually ate it. One of the kids started chewing on his sleeve, haha. I think this was the sweetest episode in a while.

Dakota Fanning was the guest after Jay Leno's first vegetable bite since 1960-something.

"I'm hoping that some of you are curious about this idea, and may lend me a hand. I'd love to get in touch with an old friend, but Googling him has led me nowhere. So... if y'all could post about my search, and ask your neighbours and friends to do the same, we can test whether social networks will allow me to find him.

I'm looking for Justin Hans Zuber, Torontonian when I knew him, son of Swiss father and German mother.

Aaaaand.... GO!" --Nox

I thought I'd post the entry here even though not many people know this journal in hopes of helping the person out. Any idea? If not, ask around please.